What do you want to see?

Tonight as Steve and I were doing our normal bedtime routine with Noah and Paige we had a really sweet moment. It was super late (due to a family cookout tonight) and so we all just went around and said a short prayer. It has been so fun teaching Noah that he can just talk to God and that prayers aren't something you just memorize and repeat. Paige (at 20 months) is also learning to prayer and it is precious! So we all go around and pray, thanking God for the many gifts of family, cozy beds, food, houses, frogs, horses, etc.

After we pray Noah says, "I really want to see Jesus!"

Wow! Pause in my heart and brain.

When is the last time I have truly wanted to see Jesus! Well, I have seen the Lord working so much in our life constantly over the last several years. I see evidence of Him and His hand at work.

But, this isn't what Noah was saying. He wanted to SEE JESUS HIMSELF!

I can tell you, with shame, that this morning I did not wake up and say to myself, I want to see Jesus today. And it isn't everyday that I am longing to be with Him and see Him. Yes, that is ultimately what I want, but most days I get caught up in myself....my selfishness, busyness, laziness, pride and my list could go on.

Tonight, I had a bit of a wake up call. What is my treasure? What do I want to see? Deep down I could say without batting an eye that I do want to see Jesus. "To live is Christ, but to die is gain!" Love it! But, I am not living like I love this and believe this every single day.

I am thankful for my children for a lot of reasons. But, man, I LOVE when the Lord uses them to let me see life as it should be. Sometimes his life is a window and helps me to look in and see simple faith, innocence... he has so much that I want. I never want him to lose this.

After Noah said this he added, "I am so sorry about those nails that went in Him. It is so sad what happened to Him!" So sweet and then Paige handed him the Bible and Noah turned right to the resurrection and told us of the empty tomb. So we could rejoice over what our Lord has done for us despite what we did to Him!

Noah wants to see Jesus! It's so contagious! I want to see Him too!

What do you want to see??